Fear of Losing you

"If you feel afraid to go and switch on the light of a dark room then just think that god is catching your hand and is leading you up to the switch, then your fear will vanish." This was what my dad told me when I was a small .kid. Since then I had never been scared of darkness. Every time I had to face darkness I felt the presence of an invisible power called 'god'. Actually not only the darkness, I did
not get scared of anything when I thought of god. But today I have fear in myself. It is not the fear of darkness or ghost. Ever since I have met you I have fear of losing you. The feeling of the presence of god also is unable to remove this fear from my mind. I don't know why but I feel that god won't help me in this regard. Before I met you I boasted that I would not be frightened of anything. But now I seem to be the most cowardly. You came to my life in such a way that now I fear how I will spend even a single moment without you. You taught me the meaning of love and care. You taught me the way to live and you made each step of my life easier. But nowadays I hear that you are planning to send me away from yourself. And this is what makes me fear. In these nine years of our relationship you never ever hurt me. Most often I hurt you instead and yet you never reacted against it. You just excused me for all my mistakes. You do have a big heart, my dear. I do not have the courage to bear the pain of separation from you. I trusted you more than I trusted my own soul but you are
trying to break that trust and send me away from you.
 
I know you will say that it's you yourself who are going away and yes it's reality but how can I stay here as you have already replaced me by someone else? How can I stay with you in this hostile situation? The fear of losing you soon is just killing me, giving me too much pain. The fear of separation is just killing me, But I am not angry with you because you are just fulfilling
your duty by replacing me.